猜。

猜。
一个人永远都不会知道对方的想法是什么。
就算一个人告诉了他的想法，那不一定是他最初的想法，也不可能知道在那个想法之中有没有改变，我们是不知道的。

猜。
一直以来是我爱做的事情。
因为我想知道别人的想法，也因为我不知道我是不是做错了什么。

猜。
是一件让人没事都会烦恼的。

猜。
我慢慢开始讨厌猜了。
为什么？
因为累了。
就算我猜对了又能怎么样呢。

猜。
永远都给不到真实的答案。为何我们要继续猜呢？


P/S: 我自己忘了，当初写这篇文章的原因。哈哈。

When a sudden sad news was heard...

Written date: 26th September 2012

What had happened? What had happened to this world? What is going on?

The moment I received the news from my college lecturer, I don't know what should I do. I couldn't really say a word. 

Felt the tears surrounded my eyes. I don't know. 

I couldn't believe what I had received, what I saw... 

I knew it had happened, and it is not a joke or a scam. 

The obituary is shown to me. I was told that without the death certificate, the family could not have posted it in the newspaper. 

My heart dropped. I couldn't control my tears from rolling off. My eyes were all wet.

I couldn't accept the fact that my friend committed suicide. 

And the reason was because of the relationship. 

I have known him for few years, had been working on projects and studying together. 

He was hardworking. He worked and went to college at the same time. He had worked so hard for all these years.. 

When a friend of mine told me, thing that can be done now is to accept the fact that Victor had left us to another world. Therefore, over the day ever since I was told about it, I tried to tell myself accept it. I had tried my best to accept it.

May my friend, Victor, rest in peace. 
We all will be missing you a lot. 

*I have sorted out some of the photos that we took together with lecturers and friends during graduation, prom, birthday, presentations.. 

Victor (right no.1) with us during our graduation last year.

Jerome (left) & Victor

He was sitting far behind me.. 

A Group Project model that he and his group mates done.. 

累。

累。
真的很累。
为何现在的我已没有了以往的动力？
为何现在的我已没有了以往的能力？

以前K 书，可以到很夜。隔天继续努力。
现在，时间到了，就得睡觉。

为什么会没有那个冲力？拼命读书的冲力毅力耐力？

咳。到底是为什么？

总觉得自己是废人一个.
一直做不到东西.
为什么会这样呢?
以前,一直在课业上要求完美的我, 到了哪里去?